Questions, but no Answers !

So, I decided to change things a little and catch a movie at theatre today evening. I was blown away with the movie Lions for Lambs. On contrary to the reviews and ratings (read criticism) that this movie has been awarded, I found it very exciting and the dialogues quite impressive. The movie reviews seem to me as a political coup to discourage people from watching such a political movie. The review goes so far to even criticize the visual effects (huh ? Where did that come from ? It's not a special effects movie !)

At any rate, I am not here to talk about that. The thing that really caught my attention was the a part of conversation between professor Stephen Malley (played by Robert Redford) and Todd Hayes (played by Andrew Garfield). I don't remember the exact words, but professor says something to the effect of -"Do people know if they are doing worthwhile of the talents they have ? How many people are afraid of finding an answer and how many make an effort to find it ?". I just felt someone talking my mind at that point. It's the same question I ask myself all the while, am I doing justice to my talents ? am I satisfied where I am or more so, am I at the right place at all ? Am I taking the right decisions in life ? Am I achieving what I want in life ? What do I want in life anyway ? Success ? How do you define success ? Success is not measurable, or quantitative. It's very subjective. For some earning a million $ is success, for some its more, for some its not about wealth at all. What is Success for me ? I think success is probably determined yourself by setting your own goals and then achieving or exceeding them and then setting even higher goals. It's not just one thing in your life, it's determined in every single thing you do. But then, if achieving your own goals is success, everyone will be successful in his own world. That seems wrong. There has to be some competitive edge to it. So is being better than others in a competition called Success ? How do you define "others" ? Is that your friends, your coworkers, your nationals or any one on this planet ? Or am I shallow thinking the meaning of Success ? May be for me Success is much bigger, probably defining the ultimate purpose I am born for. What is this ultimate purpose ?

And as does the movie, I will end this blog with loads of questions for all of you to think about, but no definite answers to any one of them. That, my friend, is the movie all about - Questions for everyone to think, but no Answers at all !

Life then and now...

I still remember the days in San Diego. I used to come home, play lot of music, vacuum my room, watch movies, practice some cricket shots, chat with roomies, play halo, cook food, and if I get time at the end of it, then work a little :). Today as I sleep in my bed thinking about life 3 years back and now, I see lot has changed, a lot. Every day I come back home thinking what office work needs to be finished, what miscellaneous work is pending, and other personal tensions in life. Life has become a lot more complicated and occupied. These days I cannot watch a movie and not have something else going on in my mind. In fact, once a movie buff, I am no longer attracted to movies. I don’t feel bad about missing a movie, or a cricket match, or some delicious food. My mind is never idle, it's constantly thinking about something. I guess everyone goes through this phase in life. I can no longer be the care free kid always under my parents' guardianship. At every step of my life I have to make decisions, decisions that define who I am. I have to be more responsible for the things I do, the things I say or don't do or say and with every step I have to think about future 10 steps that I need to take. All these things keep my mind occupied leaving very little scope for idling. I don’t know what lays forth for me in my life, but for the moment I know I have to be strong and keep maturing with every decision I take in my life and be responsible for each one of them !

Believe it or not, this is my first ever blog and I know I am not good at writing, but this blog is straight off from my mind. I sure will jazz up my future blogs as people generally do in their personal blogs...

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